Personally, I think you're just reliving the trauma of what happened before, only you're adding to it because of PTSD that you MAY have. Now maybe that's all nonsense, but I do feel it has to do with what happened before.

I really do think you need to put a restraining order on him. Who's to say if he'll come around again and try something? He very well might, especially if he drinks!

You MAY need therapy. Talk with your doctor about it and see what he thinks. If he thinks you DO have PTSD, then he can refer you to a good therapist. I wish you all the best -- please take care and God bless. Hugs, Lee