I have really bad social phobia and don't know how to deal with it.

I don't like dealing with people in pretty much all social situations, even one on one situations are bad now, which used to be easy/enjoyable for me... but not anymore!

I keep shuffling the same thoughts over and over in my head... beating myself up for being shy/quiet, feeling like I need to fix it- although I really do feel like I should open up more and push myself to make improvements, and I *want* to but I'm not sure how to or if I even have anything to say... I just feel like I can't connect with people through simple conversation or make friends and feel very lonely/isolated. Not only that I believe my shy/awkwardness also effects my ability to get/keep a job... like I'm 24 years old, unemployed, still living at home.. I go to school but I'm barely keeping up with that because of depression and maladaptive bs.. I have no friends. I just feel like nothing is going right and am getting so frustrated to where I hate everyone and everything and don't even want to live anymore... like I wake up and it's the same thoughts, the same struggle everyday without experiencing any joy and I'm just tired of dealing with it.

I'm in therapy but it's not really working for me.. like it just seems like another place to vent. I take medication but medication doesn't put words in my mouth.

Has anyone else been through this, how do you deal with it?