After months of searching for a job, I have finally landed not one, but two, interviews in the same day, something that is unprecedented for me. It always takes forever for me to get a job, and getting an interview as soon as I file the application is almost unheard of for me, much less two of them. I haven't been too sure about this whole on-line application process thing in the first place, I was beginning to think as my son jokingly put it, that I filled them out and then they floated around somewhere in cyberspace, never to be actually seen by anyone. I haven't been on a job interview in about 7 years, haven't had a job in 5. I'm 43 years old, with a bad back because of my career choice (not much of a choice for someone with limited education)as a waitress, and I find myself wondering if I can still do the job. But my son and I desperately need the money, so I don't have much of a choice. But I'm scared to death I'm going to say or do something stupid and blow the whole thing. And most places drug test now, so I'm worried about that, too. I have used marijuana to help with the pain in my back, and I'm also on Suboxone and Valium. While I have prescriptions for these, I don't feel that it's anyone's business that I take these drugs and don't feel that I should have to explain why opiates are found in my system. To me, this is an invasion of my privacy. And a lot of the assesment questions they ask on these applications, to me, sound like they are trying to weed out any candidates who might be bipolar. So does that mean I now have two strikes against me? I have to explain that I can't work except for a certain number of hours because of being on disability, which they are surely going to want to know why, (heart condition) and the bipolar? I've already dealt with enough ignorant bosses over the years who found reasons to get rid of me once they found out I had a heart condition, even tho it has never affected my work. I wouldn't worry so much, but me and my son are depending so much on me getting a job. We've just managed to keep our heads above water for the last few months, and honestly, I don't even know how I've done it. I'm really stressing out, and I'm scared to take my anti-anxiety medication, because I want to be sharp for these interviews. What should I do?