Dear any reply would be appreciated!

I was known as an unstoppable kid whom had enough energy to worn out a whole group of people etc.

Today i am 24 years old i had some serious drug related (weed and anfetamine) i figured that, that was a way for me torun away from things or to keep myself busy.
After a while my brain could not take the substances anymore therefore i stop doing it all! By not being able to take it i mean i had the feeling of losing control over myself, like i will pas out etc.
After that event o got seriously depressed that was some 4 years ago where i also wanted to finish this whole journey well luckly i found a person whom helped me out of that mind state but since then i am experiencing in periods of 2-3 months being super energectic and doing 2 jobs and more at the same time if needed giving a lot of work on my shoulders and then just like that i fall back into depression etc.
In the last 1.5 half i started experiencing panic attacks (crowded places, things i don't have control over), super low self estem etc.
I've seen thearpist whom have me antidepresive pills whom made me feel even more depresive than i was, i was traveling at the same time when i was experimenting with them so you can imagine how my trip was like .

The point is that it feels like that i can't control what is happening in my brains like i am fighting a war against my brains, in the morning when i wake up until when i go to sleep and it super tring especially if i am being super active and then this pops in.

My therapist said that i am dealing with:
panic attacks
depression

in my opinion this might be result of ADHD but i am not sure...

Ohh when i feel like that i always want to get away...where...don't ask...just away living in the woods as when i feel like that i have the feeling that everybody that are around me i can feel what they feel, think i can see the terror coming (until now it didn't happen), it's just all teh impressions that are around me are coming in my head without me bing able tp control the amount i want to take in and then the show starts.

Don't know what to expect from you but if you have a nice thought or advice please!