But for some it's helpful not to have strict schedules.

See, I read once article how celebrating New year's can land you in hospital.

If I followed strict schedules, I wouldn't have uni degree (so many all nighters!). I would not travelled as much as I did (sleep or not sleep in trains, buses and ferris is probably "bad" for bipolar. Drinking with strangers is bad for bipolar. So they say. For me it's worth it).

Dan, I am not angry. It's just... I told you how everything can include... to some unless you went to India and meditated intensely for months... you didn't do everything So maybe, you do come off as judgemental in this. I wanna life to enjoy. Life where I can get job that maybe draining on psyche (non-profit sphere cannot be put in same sentense as "avoid triggers" and "strict schedule"). I wanna life where I can take my backpack and hop on bus and travel and sleep three days when I come back, body exhausted, mind overwhelmed...

what is mentioned in OP in a way equals to me to non-life. I am willing to do other things. I meditate quite intensely and went through some intense courses... for that.