I'm sure I'll get flamed for this but I have to say it.

There is a tendency with people that have any kind of disorder or MI to get stuck on the idea of their issues and see everything through a set of skewed, off colored glasses. What I mean is, it overshadows everything that you think and do because you become aware of your disorder.

It's just a thought but I caution everyone on the board to be careful of seeing everything as related to BPD. In my mind, this is counter-productive in the sense that you're doing just what you are trying to fight, and that is, by doing this you allow BPD to rule you. By trying so much to focus on how, why and when you do things and relating it all to BPD, you are letting the disorder takeover everything and IMO, you don't see clearly anymore.

Everything in my life, every mood, every challenge does not relate to the fact that I'm bpd. My depression one time or another may simply be because I have sh* going on in my life that hurts and is hard. Such as my divorce and my flaky ex. Yeah I can sit and say it relates to my bpd becuse how I interpret it is through my disorder but simply put, everyone in every walk of life would be down about the things going on in my life. I have no car, I walk 30 min each way to a bus stop. I am struggling in many ways but I refuse to make all of it due to my BPD.

I have BPD. I act out, I am emotionally dysregulated, and impulsive. But that's only part of me, part of my life and I refuse to let it win.

I'm not trying to be a troll. Just trying to put out some positive vibes for people to grasp onto and think about.

If one person is able to get something good out of this, my job is a success.

~S4