I hear what your saying.. And frankly.. Ive been studying this disorder.
How you can get better. Traits, symptoms. Everything I can find.

And your right I blame my floors on this.
It's part of my disorder so I can get away with it WRONG.

After my scare last Thursday. Which I will how ever blame on this disorder!!

I refuse. To learn anything more. Other then how to get better.

I'm am so scared of everything right now.
I've been letting this beat me because there was an excuse for my behaviour the way I acted when drunk or sober.

Not no more. I am not going to continue living my life like this.
I am doing raki Saturday, and starting yoga. No longer drinking. ( I hope to stick to that) but panic attacks come close even looking at wine in shop right now.

I'm going to really focus in group to find mindfulness. And just bloody well get rid of this illness.

Geez that took some strength to write, but I hope to stick to it