Confused... you are so right...

Prozac is so minor among the things this Indian woman did for me...

I am off Prozac already for 3-4 weeks and doing fine - it was very helpful back then but I do not need it for life...

In April of last year, ex told me to leave California for good and never contact the kids in his lifetime. He said that he would make sure that in his lifetime he would not let me contact the kids. He said that it is hard for him to live in the Bay Area where everything reminds him of me but if I were to leave for good, he would have a chance of making peace with the area, in my absence and only in my absence. I started thinking of where to go. My only hope for income was SSDI. I would get $1350 a month in SSDI based on prior earnings. SSDI takes years to receive. I started thinking where to go. I looked at really cheap states such as Dakota. Then I realized that I would not be able to survive there because I depend on the availability of Lifeway Plain Nonfat Kefir for physical survival and it is not distributed in the middle of nowhere. I went to the Lifeway website to check where it is distributed. I wanted to go to a state where I could cross country ski, to get something good for myself besides the self-sacrifice. That also would have ensured never running into Fyodor again because he hates cold weather. I finally chose Minneapolis.

I then went to this Indian psychiatrist at Santa Clara Mental Health (she later transferred to VA to work with veterans and my current psychiatrist took over from her), for my weekly visit. She was seeing me weekly because I was high risk of a suicide attempt. She was trying to keep me out of hospital. She told me that the idea was ridiculous and that I should stay in the Bay Area until I get SSDI and she would sign all the medical statements I would need to get SSDI and help me in everything and then, after receiving SDDI but not before, I could think of moving. She said that my husband would somehow survive even with my presence in the Bay Area and that I should not be going to live in another state with no money, no support, no doctor there, and no nothing just because he demands it.


Crying now which almost never happens to me.

So yeah, I am indebted to her for much more than Prozac...