I've always had a mental block about talking about things and asking for help. Well, not always. It's gotten worse over the years. Because, you know, you tell people what's wrong or what's up and you get shot down. Over and over. So, I think that has something to do with it. I also can't write fiction stories in first person very easily. 3rd person. I also had huge issues with my identity as a child, due to bullying. I legally changed my name at 18 it was so bad.

Even here, I can answer posts and talk about myself okay. But, to ask a question, sometimes it takes me 3-4 days to get up the nerve to make a post when I need help. I will start and delete the same post over and over. So, when I make a post it's a big deal usually, and I've probably been stewing on it for a while. It takes a great effort for me.