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Originally Posted by greyclouds
I hear what your saying.. And frankly.. Ive been studying this disorder.
How you can get better. Traits, symptoms. Everything I can find.
And your right I blame my floors on this.
It's part of my disorder so I can get away with it WRONG.
After my scare last Thursday. Which I will how ever blame on this disorder!!
I refuse. To learn anything more. Other then how to get better.
I'm am so scared of everything right now.
I've been letting this beat me because there was an excuse for my behaviour the way I acted when drunk or sober.
Not no more. I am not going to continue living my life like this.
I am doing raki Saturday, and starting yoga. No longer drinking. ( I hope to stick to that) but panic attacks come close even looking at wine in shop right now.
I'm going to really focus in group to find mindfulness. And just bloody well get rid of this illness.
Geez that took some strength to write, but I hope to stick to it
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Grey, in no way do I mean to minimize that yours or anyone else's issues crop up and really throw us for a loop for a time. What I mean to say is, yes, we do at times need to deal with crises that sometimes come
do due to BPD. I won't deny that but thing is, when all is settled and the dust falls back to the ground, do we keep focusing on BPD and it's problems or move on and get on with our lives? I see a lot of people not just on pc but everywhere - stuck, like a 4 wheeler that gets stuck in the mud, unable to move, spinning it's wheels and burning out the engine. In the same way we'll do the same, spinning our wheels and end up burnt out. defeated.