Greg--I haven't had therapy, ever. :/ Good point on the triggering, I will have to pay attention and find out. I know how I remembered it the first time. I was at the ob/gyn office having an exam and I started shaking and crying when she touched me...

I guess I should have been more specific as well. My uncle's wife's brothers (12, 14, 15 at the time I was 5) the middle brother starting paying attention to me, started talking to me and then asked if I wanted to go outside and play...I said yes. We went out the back door and the other kids were out front (my cousins and a neighbor or two) I went to go around the corner to the front, he pulled me back and said he wanted just the 2 of us to play...the others would spoil it. It turned out to be a 'touching game' that turned sexual. (I really can't go into detail right now...) and I've remembered that since it happened, the one I'm not sure of involves all 3 and went beyond touching.

Thank you for all the replies, it has given me things to think over.




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