Morning to all,

It's been a while since I have been here. I have a very busy life sometimes and forget to take time for me. I must say that I like the thought of having and being able to coming to a place by myself to work on me. At this time, I am dealing with more than one issue. I have seperated myself from my Mother and brother and sister. I have co-dependancy issues that go all the way to childhood. In 2007 I tried to reconnect with my brother and sister. I was sceptical that after years of not having a relationship with them it might be worth a shot? I was wrong. Both sybling are heartless and cruel. I'm abused emotionally by them both for being me. I don't understand it but, it has now spilled over into my marriage. My biological family are users and throw love around like bait to hook me and then use it to hurt me,whether it be for money or jealousy and even to get me to do things that they don't want to do to supposingly rebuild the relationship of what was left of family. I feel sad for having to let go of them but, the unhealthy relationship is keeping me in a place that is a waste of time and making me feel guilty for trying to do the right thing. I have stopped trying and will no longer try to fit in with a disfunctional drug addicted family that has so many issues and too numerous to count. I have to continue to stay healthy mentally and now rebuild what has been torn down. I often feel best when, I have self esteem builders to listen to and read when I can to help my issues with Add/CoDependancy. I am currently see a therapist but, feel that I am not getting anything from her. She is a lovely young lady but, sence that she is only their for a paycheck. I also don't like the non-verbal communication in therapy as I don't feel like I'm not getting anything accomplished. I come out feeling more confused than better. I seem to feel better when I work on my own. If anyone has suggestions for a good down load for affirmations and self-esteem work please let me know? It will be much used and appreciated.

Huntreddog