First off i had issues with my brother, then my dad keeps drinking and having anger problems (to say the least). i have problems with my job, which i am in the middle of. and now this morning, another instance has arisen...

I had a phonecall from my sisters friend, kate, to say that my sis and her fiancee have had an arguement which turned into an fight, my sister hit Dave (her fiancee) with a cat scratching post and has fractured a bone in his foot, so hes off to the hospital now to have x-rays etc. and after she hit dave with scratching post, she continued hitting him, along with hitting his frined, Andy, and then Dave hit her back. then he kicked her out of his house and now she has nowhere to go. so my dad has now left to go pick her up and bring her back here. she has such a nasty violent streak (must have inherited it from my dad) and she has tried to stab my dad in the past.

she does drugs too. she has been spotted by numerous people to be hanging around with drug dealers and dealing etc. so drugs make her more volatile!!

her and my dad do not get on, they constantly argue and i have seen so many fights between them. when she is here there is always shouting from her and there is always an atmosphere. i just hope she doesnt move back here. however nasty that may sound, i dont want her back here, i really dont.

my brothers found a place and is moving out int he next couple of days. that comes after i confronted him about the sexual abuse and told him i want him out a couple of months back. so hes going.

my dad is still drinking, and is still doing it secretly.

but now its my sister who is causing uproar!! when is it going to end, all this trouble. there is never a dull moment with my family and i always wonder what will happen next!

i know that my dad and sister argue alot, and if she is still in a violent mood today when he picks her up (hes on his way to pick her up now) they will end up having a physical fight again. so god only knows what will happen today...time will tell...

im glad i have PC to turn to when this family is in turmoil. its just one thing after another, after another!

no wonder it takes me so much hard work to stay strong and positive, i wish i knew how i do it, but somehow i do. just.

i will keep you updated as the day progresses. im just dreading what will happen. but i have to stick around to make sure they dont fight. my brothe rhas done the usual thing, and has shot off out somewhere before they get home, so once again im left to sort it out. im only 19, i shouldnt have to be doing this at my age!! hopefully it wont get to that stage but ive seen it before and im sure i will see it again!

speak soon

simon