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Originally Posted by idontknow247
Hi,
I had a baby 5 months ago. We were very very bonded from the start. I was extremely anxious though, and so was he. One day after very stressful circumstances (a move, no sleep, paranoia) I woke up regressed and had no connection with the baby, in fact he looked like someone else's baby. I felt like a kid taking care of a kid. I tried to reconnect but realized I was of a different mindset and tried to switch back, to no avail. My husband and other child only know one side of me (the side I regressed or switched to, never bonded with first child). Now I feel the same about all of them, very detached and ambivalent.
I've seen a few therapists but they haven't heard of this happening. I don't know what to do. Now I just sit in a room by myself.
I forced my husband to quit his job, took my other son out of school, and we moved half way across the world to be near family. I thought this would help, but it hasn't.
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of course human babies can bond with their mother who happens to be an alter.. who else is going to feed the baby, diaper the baby, cuddle, rock, sooth the baby when the mother is spaced off, dissociated... I know many people with DID who have children and some of their alters jobs/purposes/reasons for being is to take care of the children.
example when I would be triggered by something when at family parties, reunions many relied on me to care for all the babies/children that came while their parents were off drinking/partying. they didnt know I had DID and was at that moment an alter they just knew I could be depended on to take care of their children and their children loved me, it doesnt matter that it wasnt me the aware self that was feeding/diapering, loving, rocking, soothing them. when I go back "home" many of those children come running to me to give me hugs and tell me things they remember about me taking care of them. they dont know the one that took care of them was an alter, they just know they love me and loved/love to be near me and doing things with me. it is the bond these babies and children and I have that has told me I can be a great mom and can bond completely with children.
if you read around this board with the past posts you will find many people with DID who have children and the children have bonded with both the alters and the hosts.