This morning I can barely type the words because my hands won't stop shaking. My h went into one of his rages last night that lasted for hours. And he just went off on me on the telephone. It doesn't matter to him if I beg him to stop or the impact his rages have on me.
I feel like I am facing death each day. I feel so worthless even though my head knows that is not true. I just don't understand how someone can attack you and then get up and go to work like normal. Sometimes when I hear his voice, I just drop to the floor and curl into a ball. Without thinking, my body just seems to do it. At work, if someone unexpectedly walks into my office, I jump or have to fight back the tears because I am so scared of what is coming.

I just can't deal anymore.