I have been with my girl friend for 9 months and trust issues are killing me, it's partly her fault or mine?
I'm 28 years old with alotta relationship experience, because I was always very athletic and decent looking, I could always get any girl I want often. This time I decided I really want to be with this girl who used to be my neighbor, who is beautiful and sexy. I always wanted to find the one!
However I always had issues, mostly not on my end, due to our culture issues..I am strict catholic from Iraq and so were most girls I dated. The problem is that in our culture the girls are suppose to stay reserved before marriage.. however most of them don't and it causes many issues because the girls who do have sex before marriage and leave their boyfriends end up lieng to the next guy claiming they are virgins! Which is understandable to some degree, however it has torn me apart, because I always end up believing, feeling guilty and relating to the girls nd the end up being liars, so for the past years I was staying away from commitment. Now you might think, why not get a girl from different culture? > the answer is because our culture is very unique and I am afraid many others won't relate and know my background/ language.
The problem right now with my girlfriend is that she swears on the bible that she only had one sex partner (her ex) before me when she was 17-20. Now she is 23.. She also told me that she regrets it and that they barely had sex after giving herself the first time, she was forced to stay in that relationship for the next two years and she barely had fun sex! She barely went down on him! I believed her of coarse, however there are still issues here that I found,,, #1 she is good in bed, very good! very good when she goes down on me?? #Very confident >. She sais this is all because she loves me, however its hard for me, because her body language does not tell me so often! #2. She was always way more outgoing before she met me, she goes clubbing often, drinks a bit and stays out real late, yet she claims she has never done anything there.. The other problem is that all her friend she hangs out with are girls that sleep around and who even take guys to the bathroom at the club..
How could she not have done the same? She swears on the bible? Am I exaggerating and overanalyzing? But I have experience? So confused!!! Help me??
I really love her and have talked to her many times about this... to the point we fight about it and she gets real defensive!!
By the way we are in a long distance relationship, she is in Europe and I am in Michigan. We talk everyday.. she has visited me already and we had sex when she was here...
Sometimes I question myself? Why did she give herself so soon? Why is she so confident? Does love really do this to a girl? Or is this all fake? I keep my hopes and prayers, yet I have to come up with a solution as well as conclusions! I really like to get to know her for the better...
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