Yes, I have extremely low self esteem. I have for as long as I can remember. I've never liked myself very much at all. Do I want to go another 40-50 years regretting that I didn't try? No. But, I spent all of high school "trying" I've spent the last 5 years "trying" and it's gotten me nothing but rejection and a broken heart. That's why I feel like giving up. What's the point in putting myself out there when I get hurt every time that I do?

You can suggest therapy, everyone else does. I won't go though. I'm too shy and closed off, I would never talk about any of this stuff to anyone in person, especially not someone that I didn't even know. Plus it costs money and I'm not in a good place financially to have any extra money to be spending on that anyways.

And yes, everyone says that you can't love someone until you learn to love yourself. But I honestly don't believe that, I've never loved myself, but I've been in love. I think that some people need someone to love them (or at least like them) before they can like themselves. At least that's how I feel. Because right now I feel like, nobody else likes me....so why should I like me?

I don't know. I've never had any confidence, I've always been shy and had very low self-esteem. So, I don't really know how to "get over it". I can barely even talk to people that I don't know, so meeting people is nearly an impossible feat for me.