I'm not too sure my mom's passing is the REAL problem ...
I don't like choices I've made in life and I don't know if the experience with my mom is only bloating things. My younger sister has stage 4 BC and on third round of chemo. My husband (not legal, but together 21 years) has a congenital defect and nearly lost him a month before my mom died) plus we are strained, and my dad needs me not only because of what we shared but for legal.

I'm not as strong as everyone thinks ... They have no idea how lost I am.