Thanks everybody. The support is wonderful. Nothing will change the fact that my mother was robbed of her final time to make peace with her children. I was able to tell her I loved her and to thank her for being my mother and do the best she could--here I go crying again
But I will be a long time forgiving how it happened. Sometimes anger is good and righteous. My mother was a human being and that hospice took her choices from her. It might not have been my choice to accept all care, but it was my mother's. But she was elderly and mentally ill, and as I found out that didn't count in the end to a Catholic hospice. I can't forgive them for euthanizing my mother. Only God and my mother can.

Again to all of you thanks for the support and the room to air my feelings.