I have a way of not being able to let go of certain stupid things I say for a long time, if ever. Does anyone else have that? I wonder if it's a BPD thing, like, if it's part of the BPD guilt thing?

For example, I kind of snapped at a coworker this past weekend who I felt was micromanaging me and kind of at me all day. I know that's linked to guilt but now, with ruminating on how I snapped at her (and how I must be a bad person, and how she must hate me, even though I know it's not true) I start ruminating on stupid things I've said years ago that have stuck with me. Times I've snapped at someone, or comments I've made, or just something that came out wrong. It could be anything that's drawn negative attention to me. It's really annoying. I try to tell myself that I'm probably the only person that remembers what I've said, or that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter, or that my coworker will eventually forget or that it eventually won't matter to her, but that doesn't help.

Anyone else identify with this?