I am sorry that this has happend to you. Like you I was sexually abused when I was about 6 and well it didn't last as long as yours did but I still have problems coping with it. I had blocked mine out completely until this recent year. When I uncovered it I felt really ashamed of myself and I still do sometimes when thinking about it. Please know that you are not alone on your feelings. I hope you talk with someone about this. It really does help to talk about your problems. *hugs* hang in there!