My boyfriend and I have been together almost 2 years,we have a 6 month old daughter together & on new years he proposed to me.I was hesitant but said yeah of course he made the effort to pick out a ring and get on his knee in the snow,didn't want to sound harsh by saying no.Not that I want somebody else,or am unfaithful,I just don't understand the point.I've never been the girl that wanted a marriage or kids but my daughter came and I wouldn't change her for the world,but it feels like the only point of getting married would be to share obligations.Roomates persay.We don't need eachother for anything.We make our own money,pay our separate bills,feed ourselves,have separate blankets when we sleep,I mean I just don't understand the use of this.why do I Need this? It brings me no joy or completeness or a feeling of anything other than obligations.We are two separate people who have a daughter together.He says he's happy and complete and blah blah but yet I don't feel that.I don't understand why I don't think of things the same way as other people.Yes I care about him,love him,but don't need him,he's just there.I could go either way.I've always been happy alone.Is this normal?Is that what a marriage is? A life of boredom and nothing to look forward to?Should I just get married knowing to me its just a piece of paper?
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