Grace,

My heart hurts for you because I know first hand what you are saying. It seems so completely hopeless , the bottomless pit. During my toughest days, my therapist told me to literally, with a timer, set it for 5 min and then decide how I was going to use those 5 min. Then restart the timer again, and again, and again. She said too, that I could choose to take 5 min and just bawl my eyes out, that that was perfectly fine, but once the 5 min was done, I would have to choose something else. It sounds AWFUL I know, but it did get me to a point of at least accomplishing something every day. And all it takes is a start. I don't know, I might not be explaining myself well. I hope you are able to get some great advice to take to heart. Keep posting ((hugs))