I know what you're talking about when u say that recovering from a failed attempt of suicide is worse than the attempt,
i tried to kill myself a few days ago and i kept thinking that if i had just tried a little harder,i would've succeeded.But,im trying not to keep attempting suicide or cutting myself but,its not working for me.I just dont understand how i got over all of this stuff last yearbut,as soon as they made me live with my parents again,everything started going wrong again.When I had to stay in Juvenile Hall when my parents were in jail and then when they let me live with my sister,they all made sure i was on my meds and everything,but,now that im back with my parents again,its very seldom that they even think about me,so i cant get my meds anymore cause they keep "forgetting" to buy them.I just dont get it how they could "forget" to buy something that
basically keeps me alive everyday (or at least feeling alive)
but,they can go out to the bars and everything.