I'm brand new on this site, but I just read your post and it made me want to cry. I hear myself as a teen (that was 20 yrs ago - but it still hurts). My trich got better and occasionally I'd think it was gone for good. But, all in all.... it did get better as I got out of my teens. I loved art and music as well, and never felt like I fit in. Making friends was difficult... I don't have answers for you, as much as I wish I did. But sometimes, just knowing you're not alone is a help. I just remember feeling so self conscious and alone and that no one would understand. I still have a hard time talking about it. But, I hope you find that special friend that you need there in Canada and get back to your sports (it helps!).