maybe someone feels lonely even though they're in a relationship... i don't know which is worse.

sometimes we make the best with what our options are at the time. me for example, a bipolar mom of 3 with 2 of them having bp, with 2 deadbeat dads in her wake has less of a pool of potential mates to choose from. there's always many ways to look at something. no relationship will be perfect, i know this the hard way. i would hope that i could still feel safe to vent to my friends or vent somewhere when i'm all bottled up and need to talk about stuff.

i do have some girlfriends who gets to feel like they complain nonstop about their husbands or ex husbands. and sometimes it's too much for me, i'll usually tell them i can't handle it, and tell them i'm about to have to go pay a therapist to talk about how her problems are weighing on me.

but sometimes i'm thinking, "biatch, do you see who you're dumping on? do you even see me? at least your ex contributes to child support payments and didn't abandon your children causing them such pain to try to kill themselves and cut their bodies! at least you have your dad still alive and family to help you!" i don't tell them that part...

i have my path, they have theirs. i'm sure they meant no harm to me, they just needed a friend to listen...