T,
I hate that I feel like I have to lie to you like I do to everyone else. It wears me down so much now that I feel the need to try and guess what you want to hear and play pretend so you won't feel upset.

I'm angry at you for not seeing this and for asking leading questions that make it more likely that I'll say what you want me to. I hate myself too for being such a dishonest coward.