I got into an argument w. pdoc a few weeks ago over the phone. I had requested a DNR Order form from his secretary and to make a long story short... I created a panic and we got into an argument.

I feel that he doesn't give me credit that I'm doing my best to get better when in fact, I'm very much am. I haven't missed 1 appt w. him or T, take my meds every night, mood charting, exercising, & even asked about voluntary hosp.

My friend tells me that it seems he got offended that I asked for the form as an indication that I don't believe he can treat me. He feels that I haven't given him a chance to treat me yet because I've only seen him a few times and drug hasnt worked yet. He accused me of "keeping things" from him (but hello... I only see him for 20 mins/mo).

Argument was kinda ugly... with questionable professionalism. He ended it by telling me to talk to T about the form, refusing to sign (although, legally... I don't think he can do that), and hung up on me. Called him back and he never returned my call.

I gotta see him in a couple of weeks and I'm getting real nervous. I don't know what to say to him or if he's still upset w. me. I want to stick w. him because we click and I think he's good. But I'm feeling awkward now. Should I keep seeing him? My T thinks I should attend this appt regardless whether or not I'm keeping him.Then there's this trust issue.... What if he doesn't want (though he has to) to treat me cuz he thinks I'm a lost case? On the other hand... I don't want to look for another pdoc over a tiff.

What to do?