Bambi,

Your description of your relationship doesn't sound as though you are getting anything meaningful out of the relationship with your bf/fiance. So, how can you say that you love him? What exactly do you love about him?

Don't make yourself marry just because you don't want to disappoint your bf. He'd be a lot more disappointed to later find out that you weren't really emotionally connected to him to begin with! Your post just sounds very negative about your perspective towards your current relationship, which is a big red flag to me. If you truly don't see any positives to this relationship now, maybe you both ought to take a couple of steps back from one another to gain a better perspective.

You need to do what you honestly believe, in your heart, is the right thing for you to do for your happiness. Believe it or not, young children very quickly pick up on moods of others. Particularly those that they care about. So, if you're always feeling down, or stressed, hopeless, your daughter will certainly pick up on those emotions no matter how you try to disguise them. They are smart cookies ~ trust me! Being honest with yourself will allow you to be a lot happier in the time that you spend with your daughter.

Best wishes to you and your family!