I told this to a couple of doctors/psychiatrists and they really didn't have an answer. And the scary thing is, its not much better if worse, when i wasn't even on medication. I was considering going to a neurologist. It could be just effects of real bad depression/anxiety but i feel like something is like permanently wrong. It scares me quite a bit.. i really cant believe it sometimes, i hate to say it, but it almost feels like brain damage or down syndrome. Perhaps after all the years of switching medications, adding.. i feel ***** for life. (by the way, people have told me it could be depersonlization, dissociation etc.) But it just feels god awful..