You're right. You shouldnt feel any guilt or anything. You're number one and whats right for you is right for you.

Whatever happens for either of you, its just what was meant to be.

You are clearly a VERY strong person. You have survived a lot. You have some really good things in your life now and a lot to look forward today. Its your wedding day, if you don't want him there thats completely understandable.

You see it happen all the time, at my Nans funeral my cousins (others not abusive) werent allowed because of a load of issues with their father, my uncle. It saved a lot of arguments and at the end of the day it was my Nans day, not theirs for a squabble.

You'll get there. Good luck with everything I hope it all goes well for you.

Whatever happens, happens for a reason. You'll get there.