JSG, thanks so much for your response. I've had the thought too that I might be on the cusp of some kind of healing. But it's so hard to tell. Consult T (newT) has told me that it would likely be very healing for me to work through and resolve the difficulties I've had with T. I agree with her. But I've backed away a good deal with T because I've been so afraid of getting hurt.

I'm glad to hear that you seem to be in the thick of the repair process (in a good way) with your T! You give me hope