after 1 year of bi polar mania followed by 2 years of being trapped in rehab sle fighting dui, I'm back at work. what's odd, is that i now see how unstable my behavior was prior to all this. people are stopping into my commercial real estate office, dropping off plans etc, and i'm surprised how nice they all are to me. i suppose amidst the eradic behavior that they all could not understand, there was a piece of me that was likeable. I'm just getting through all the shame of what I was like, drinking and bi polar, untreated. So far its ok. I'm new at understanding what my illness was, and what it's like to be treated or under treatment.