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Originally Posted by refika
That is my biggest fear, termination...just when I feel like I'm starting to trust T and really make progress. I don't know what I would do if T dropped me....I've made some major (and overdue) decisions in my life based on the progress we made, and I'm confident in the decisions, but I need T's support to follow through on them. Part of me can't believe I was so stupid to tell T, but the other part of me couldn't live with the guilt any longer which is why I told T. I'm afraid T will think I'm some crazy stalker who will drive by T's house now or hang out in their neighborhood (which is not true, because the LAST thing I want is to bump into T outside of their office).
I don't know how I'm going to make it through until Friday when I see T again...
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I could have written this myself. I found some stuff out about T and told her because I felt guilty, actually had a bit of a panic about it because it felt so wrong! She said it didn't matter but I felt soo stupid for saying anything in the first place. So I spent the next few weeks pretending like nothing had happened and then I had to talk about it again, because it was weighing on my mind, and I'm soo glad I did. I feel like we can move forward now and that we can trust each other more.
What I remind myself of: you are not a stalker, it is normal and natural to want to know more about your T. You should be able to tell T about anything,
even when it comes down to talking about them. It feels uncomfortable because it feels inappropriate to say these things but maybe it is just a new step into a deeper and more therapeutic relationship. AT least that's what I tell myself when I am worrying about it
