Hey... See, i'm not entirely sure what i'm supposed to put here, but I suppose I'll have to tell you a little about myself. I'm in high school, grade 10, and ever since I have been a kid, I have always been a little awkward. Before grade 7, I had no friends at school, I never talked to anyone, and I usually just spent most my time alone, which I find very depressing to think about... Nowadays, its pretty much the same, but I have 2 friends. I spend all my time with them, and I panic if neither of them are at school. I am lost without them. I never eat in the cafeteria if i'm not with one of them, because I cant handle the fact that maybe, if I buy something from the cafeteria, I might have to eat with someone I don't know. It terrifies me and I know it annoys my friends. One of my friends once told me that I have to be more independent, and that I don't need to be with her all the time, but I do feel like, that if i'm alone, i'll have a panic attack or something.

I have a very difficult time dealing with people. I avoid all social situations, except if I'm in a very confident mood, which is very rare. I rarely like to talk to people and I do not like working with others (except my friends). If I have to work with someone(and they don't tell me exactly what to do) I usually like to let them do all the work. Not because i'm lazy or stupid, its just that I don't want to mess up.

I have the hardest time talking in front of class or anyone. If the teacher asks me a question, and I'm not 100% sure I know the answer, I freeze. I just sit there and shake my head and maybe mumble the answer so that no one can hear. See, I'm a fairly smart person, I would suppose. Almost all the times that the teachers ask me a question in class and I don't answer, I'm usually right. The only time I ever felt comfortable talking in front of my class was in English class. I had to tell a story of something that happened in my past from the top of my head, and I had a really funny story to tell. Maybe it was that I really admire my teacher (more of a role model or a friend) and I want to impress him.

I just felt like ranting, and maybe have someone help me with this?