JustWantToBeNormal, I just read several articles on Meditation and would like to recommend one to you. I think you might find it under this website:
http://www.buddanet.net/psymed1.htm It's an article by Jack Kornfield called
"Even the Best Meditators Have Old Wounds to Heal". I found it helpful in
understanding how meditation brings one to "a complex path of opening and awakening".

There are several safe sites regarding meditation. You might wish to investigate
a couple of them.

Take care.