I feel like I'm slipping on this whole positivity thing....I don't understand why its so easy to fall back into negativity yet so hard to keep positive and carry the right attitude....I make stupid decisions......pbbtt sigh....
I know its not the end of the world. I have lots to be grateful for yet I'll sit here and mentally bash myself then do something I shouldn't out of utter desperation. And its funny the person in my head that I daydream about and when I sit here with thoughts I don't act like that but out in the real world I act like a complete mess of a person when I'm amongst other people.....like I feel the need to be someone else even though I don't seem to know who the heck I am to begin with...try to hard to be awesome....or say things I think people wanna hear.....raaaaaarrrrrrrrr.......