^That. Meditation does help... When I allow myself to focus on it!

I totally understand. Even when the thoughts aren't racing, it's like they're always going. I also have OCD & anxiety issues so my obsessing is more like worry, but I got ya.

Also, I've been with my boyfriend (technically fiancé) for 7 years, it's pretty clear neither of us are going anywhere. He's seen me at my absolute worst, so at this point I feel pretty safe that I won't ever scare him off. Just takes the right person <3