I did try lamictal first and could not tolerate it I have tried many meds
A calm life is my best Medicine but impossible at this time. Yes, shitstorm sums it up well. Thanks for letting me vent. I'm just going to do the stupid lithium and deal with the weight gain, I'll need the extra weight to keep me warm when I'm living in my car anyway. . Dammit life ****ing sucks right now.