I have a thing called a bleeding heart. Have anyone of you been diagnosed with this? I actually had to have an EKG and other machine to find out. I think i know what causes it its a thing called LOVE. I know it sounds like a song, but it is an actual condition that more people have than we would think. Blood slowly drops like tears from your heart, so slow, it's excruciating pain. I first felt it when my ex boyfriend kissed me for about a half an hour, just making out, when he got out of the car (it happened in a car) that was the exact moment i felt my heart hurt, and it was excrutiating when he was kissing me too. I was bleeding for him because he showed me so much love and I knew in my heart I couldn't stay with him. He asked me to marry him the next day. Stupidly, I said no, as I was in an accident that left me with mental and pshysical problems. I somehow knew he would have a rough life if he was with me, it was a sacrifice I made, for him, and i now know after going through all the hospital stays, medications, doctors, health problems, one of which is degenerative disc disorder, schitzoaffective disorder and tons of other things, I could look back and say I did the right thing because I don't think anyone could live with me with all that stuff. Almost 20 years later, I can still feel it. He ended up getting married and has a 16 year old kid now. I'm happy for both of them, and their child. I ended up getting married to an old friend I grew up with, that knew everything, as I told him before i married him and he was sad, but understood.- avlady
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