So sorry, Jennyfer, but it sounds as though your boyfriend is an alcoholic and is about to hit the bottom. Maybe he will decide to give up alcohol and get treatment
through one of the agencies (such as Alcoholics Anonymous) that will help him into
remission.

In the meantime, you need therapy and you need to get away from his presence, in
my view, so that you might recover. Please make arrangements to see a psychiatrist and find out what his thoughts are about your own health and that it
might be in jeopardy as long as you stay in the environment you are in now.

His abuse may turn to violence; that you don't want at all. You deserve to have a
calm, quiet home life; and since you're working, you really do need to have help to
deal with it all.

I hope you will get it and make the changes needed to recover from an
abusive relationship.

Best wishes,