Sometimes I think I'm better off single... I was actually in full acceptance of singledom all summer following a break up, for the first in my life I embraced it and I honestly was never happier.. no obsessing over someone or worrying if they really like me or feeling as if I'm not good enough. Although I jumped on the dating bandwagon at the beginning of winter, my depression came back and I think I did so in an attempt to alleviate my depression and curb boredom.. it's definitely added stress and it's actually made me feel more lonely, like I have this yearning feeling and this urgency to find someone... needing to be loved, accepted, and to be affectionate with someone else. It probably doesn't help that I'm on a dating site, it makes everyone seem like a cheap commodity and all I'm doing is shopping for the person with the best "features".. and yet everyone seems so subpar and I hold on to the belief that something better is out there.. I'm definitely getting preoccupied with it too. I'm dating two guys now, neither have managed to sweep me off of my feet.. but I feel like I should just settle with one and be done with it. Ack! Yeah, maybe I should jump off this bandwagon now and go back to embracing and ENJOYING singledom.