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Originally Posted by misskeena
I've thought about this many times. I probably would have graduated from medical school and been who knows where by now since my goal from junior high school was to be a physician. My major in college was initially biology, and my plan was to go to med school from there. I switched majors I don't know how many times because I couldn't stand the pressure and my depression and constant breakdowns got in the way of studying and a serious, rigorous schedule. I even switched back to biomedical sciences a few years ago, giving it one last shot. I switched to nursing after I couldn't handle my biology major (not that nursing school is easy at all), then I quit nursing school with two semesters left before graduation. Now I'm on the waiting list for nursing school again and, honestly, I don't want to go back, but I can't stand to think of myself in my current job forever, and I can't stand the thought of not finishing my degree though I don't know if I can actually finish nursing school for sure this time.
So yeah. I'm pretty sure that, at least education-wise, I have an idea of where I'd be without BPD, and it's far ahead of where I am now.
It's nice for people to say that BPD makes them who they are and that it does no good to wonder, but I'm not there yet. I had so many plans for myself before this thing officially took hold in my late teens/early 20's. I have too many regrets I'm not reconciled with yet. Call me angry... you'd be right. I hate this f---ing disorder.
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I'm glad someone can relate! I'm all over the place when it comes to school! I'm working on my associates currently so I don't have nearly as many options at this point but keep jumping back and fourth between photography and graphic design- I've kind of told myself to just stick with graphic design no matter what, I also have a job counselor through Mi works rehabilitation program and it's my goal to get the graphic design degree and feel kind of stuck with it.. although I don't know anything about it, am terrible reluctant to take classes for it, and feel that I may lack the passion for it to complete the degree let alone succeed in the field... I'm currently hell bent on doing something with music and it'll be my focus for the summer, I'm not trying to make money with it I just want to do it. I'm definitely not looking forward to university... it's currently a toss up between filmmaking, communications, anthropology, and graphic design.. I've also contemplated biology and neuroscience but those are probably out of my league.
How long have you been in school and how do you do in your classes?
I'm finding it very difficult.. I've "managed" for about a year but am only clinging onto one class this semester. I tend to get into funks and will miss classes, get overwhelmed and wind up dropping at least one class each semester.