How do you know me so well ClearSky? Yes I go into catastrophic thinking as a reaction to stress too often, pdoc has talked to me about this too. I actually have some good coping skills and can deal with a lot, but sometimes it's all too much and I crumble into crazy time. Very good advice about Women Venture, I will check it out, thank you. I'm trying to power through this day, but I'm struggling, really struggling. I do have savvy business skills, yes I certainly do and I have accomplished much even if the biz fails.
Deep breaths, ok, I can do that. There is still hope I'm trying to tell my poor exhausted lonely brain nice things, and I am working and not in bed crying, so that is good. But brain is pretty overwhelmed and mushy this morning.

And the 1 lithium tab I took last night seems to be giving me some brain buzzes - nothing like cymbalta withdrawal, but noticable and not pleasant.

Thanks very much all for listening, care, advice, and I welcome any prayers and good thoughts from any belief from any part of the world.