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Old Mar 28, 2013, 04:37 PM
NCgirl NCgirl is offline
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Member Since: Mar 2013
Location: North Carolina
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Originally Posted by unhappycamper463 View Post
Swam 5k and did spin class today. Almost puked. Didn't stop the thoughts from racing through my head. I'm reading all these CBT books about self-esteem and depression but nothing has clicked. Went to church last week and had lunch with a pastor yesterday but I don't have the willpower to take a leap of faith. At the end of the day, regardless of what you do, you have to come home at night and look at those dark-circled eyes in the mirror and not hate the thing staring back at you. I don't know the answer. I don't know anything. I am nothing.

"But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here"
Stay active ANYWAY! it will help you in the long run. It will get you out of the house and around other people. Take walks. I volunteer at the local animal shelter because animals are almost always in a good moos when you give them attention. Help otherts. I make a list in the mornings of things I need to get done, whether I like it or not! Gives me goals!