It seems a little to my like there is some Bi polar floating around in your words you posted. If you do not get far with the therapist you currently have. Try to find one who has a specialty in what you think is the issue. Add and Bi polar can be really close in the symptoms. But they will be able to decipher. You just gotta find that one person you connect with. It can be a long road but is O so worth it.

For me my anxiety and depression was a result off my own ADD. I was using drugs and alcohol to cover it up. But I had to quit. Things were getting bad for me. I finally found a PDOC who is helping me out quite alot. And I have no urge to drink or do drugs as it stands right now.

Keep up the strong will and things will get better. then the world will be lifted.