I'd love to move out, but right now i cant. i cant afford it, and what with changing every aspect of my life at the moment, i have to try one thing at a time. it seems i have hit a stage in my life where i have decided to change so much of my life and i am doing it, but i have to do one thing (or 2) at a time, so once i get my job sorted, and my car test passed, i will move out. it shouldnt be much longer. but in the mean time, i have learnt how to detatch myself from my family and focus on my own problems. ive had to learn fast and i believe im there now. i do get down somedays, but thats normally because im low anyway and my family just trigger it.

my sister is now sleeping on our couch for a week until she gets paid and is able to move out. its not too bad i suppose...there havent been any arguements yet, and i emphasise the word "YET"!!

thank you for your support. i havent yet looked up Al-Anon or any of the others. i suppose its because i feel i dont need them, as long as i am able to come here and talk about whats upsetting me, i find it does help so much. i already know how to deal with my dad. im not being arrogant, or stubborn etc, i just feel i dont need to go there. i feel i have the situation - on my behalf - under control. but i might be wrong.

thank you all for caring, i appreciate it, you all know that.

speak soon

simon