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Originally Posted by Perna
Are you on any meds (not just psychiatric)? It could just be a parasomnia caused by your medicines.
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I am not on any medications at this point. I have sleeping pills my regular doctor prescribed, but I don't want to become dependent on anything.
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Originally Posted by hankster
What IS it with your T wanting to be in the room??? Tell him nobody else's t ever said that in the history of the world, and that I think he needs to get therapy for it!! The only room he gets to be in, is the consulting room. it's not like he's the Tooth Fairy.  |
He says he would like to be in the room because the child deserves to be surrounded by love and compassion and to be heard with understanding and validation. I think he knows where I am well enough to know that I am not capable of offering that right now.
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Originally Posted by tooski
I've experimented a couple of times with going back to my childhood and trying to see what I could remember. I did this on my own, outside of the T room, when I was close to drifting off to sleep. All of a sudden there was just a whirlwind swirling around me, an absolute maelstrom, and I was completely terrified. I didn't see anything, just felt like I was going to be blown off the planet. I realized I would never EVER try to go back alone. If I ever do it again, T is going to be with me. In this scenario I'm just a helpless little kid - I'm not going back as the adult I am now, but a small and helpless child. I want someone big and strong with me to protect me, and he's it.
Perhaps this is what your T is thinking. I don't think it's weird at all. I ain't never going back to the past alone!
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I get what you are saying, but I do not want anything remotely paternal from him and this whole idea feels quite paternal. The whirlwind / maelstrom thing is really, very familiar though. Lying in bed after the nightmare, shaking, completely unable to remember anything about the dream, I feel totally overwhelmed and all reason is swept away. There is no lying there, relaxing or accepting, or trying to be "present" in the dream. It's just GONE when I awake and all I'm left with is this feeling of terror.