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Originally Posted by Maranara
I cannot say that because I do not remember a time without it. My mom had it before me and I had traits as long as I can remember. I do not ever remember having goals that my current behavior and attitude were not a factor. It's gotten better some days and worse on others but it's always been there.
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I hope you don't think I was aiming my vitriol at you.
There are just pockets of anger in my brain. *sigh* I need to smooth them over.
I don't like to look too far back anymore, but when I do, I notice that there were traits going on pretty far back. I think they started definitively in junior high. I think what I'm realizing in elementary school was more on the scale of depression and not so much BPD quite yet. I was definitely quite a depressed 9 year old though.
Just because of how I grew up I had to have plans for myself. I was fairly organized and then, once I hit a certain bump in the road, it's like my cart overturned and everything went to s---. That was right around the age of 23. I haven't recovered it to this day.