No we were very young, early 20s and he felt like we were going in different directions at the time so he wanted to break up. I was going off to college, etc. He didn't meet his wife until later. I like what you said about I can't will myself to think of him any less because that is true. I wish I didn't have such strong feelings. I get those butterflies in my stomach and a chill up my spine when he touches me. I guess you are right there is nothing I can do but wait it out to see if he will tell me he has any feelings or not.. Thanks for the advice!